12 March 2008

The story goes like this,there was once a kid who had 5 best friends but two of them[purple & SJ] was much closer to her and she trusted them the most as she knew them since primary 2 and the other 3, she knew them when she was in primary 4 .

One of the primary 2 friend [purple] was a girl that worked hard and persevered in her studies. Purple was a person i trusted the most. We[the other four and me] depended on her more than others because she had good results and is one who can be trusted.We looked upon her as a elder sister [ a mature one]. We shared our secrets and didnt spread it to others except within the 5 of us.

But when she stepped into secondary school,she changed tremendously and so i didnt talk much to her since then. We got to know two other girls[XY & YJ] that have a great passion for choir.

Even though we[purple and me] are still together but the time we spent together is short each year! I am not trying to point fingers and say that they[XY & YJ] snatch purple away but she really changed!

I thought our friendship would last as we are in the same school but things were not as what i thought! Something happened to her grandma and she didnt tell me! I knew about it but i just kept quiet as i respected her choice of not telling me [because there must be a reason why she didnt tell me] But i was quite close to her GM like we were two good friends but purple didnt tell me that, which was unexpected but she told the other two girls[XY & YJ].

Not long after i told her things about her GM to the other primary 2 girl[SJ] as i thought i could trust her but i was wrong! She went to ask purple about her GM. She has a problem shutting up her mouth!

So i told my mum the whole incident and she told me that i will most likely lose purple as a friend. I started getting very anxious and start to think of how to explain to her! and try to salvage the problem.

So i told purple that the whole incident i told SJ about was some one else[white lie] but she didnt really buy my story and so in the end i told her everyhing and that i said that i was wrong to tell SJ but she hid all this things from me first and i didnt know that she didnt want some people to know about it.

I didnt know she doesnt want SJ to know! i thought it was alright to say as they were pretty close. This thing has passed for more than 1/2 year! So long le, then suddenly out of the blue, purple smsed me,

"I dont know whether i should believe you or not trust you, you keep lying."

Then i started thinking of what she is saying then i remember that she is still angry over the thing that i told SJ about her GM. I tried explaining to purple but obviously she didnt want to listen to my explanation as she hung up half way through our conversation which was rude! I started crying and then called one of my friend but i still cant stop crying even though she was trying to console me.

And then purple send another sms.

"The fact that you have already harm my family, especially my mother and father... If my father knows about this, he will be very disappointed and angry at you."

I dont know, i really dont know what is she thinking about!! That night i had tuition and so was not home when my mum was talking to her dad [ not so sure who called who]. When i reached home, my mum scolded me for being such a kpo and for gossiping about her behind her back!
I was sad[i cried]and angry.Ican't take it this is a big.. for me but i overcome it.

Purple is really making a big fuss out of such a small matter. As parents of both parties were involved.

My mum apologized and said that she dont want to see me and purple being enemies. and her dad still said that purple and i will be fine after the holiday[ i know that is not going to happen as purple is a stubborn girl and wont take this likely].

I dont hope for forgiveness but at least try to understand what happened first as she didnt really know what happened and she didnt give me a chance to clear things up. I am now not angry nor sad but disappointed that this is how much she trust me and it hurts to think that we were once best of friends. It hurts. I will try to forget her . i know i can!

Now SJ tell me that purple was only trying to ask me and not to socld me but then why the cold treatment and why she hung up on my halfway?

I really dont know what is purple trying to do or say.

" she is not simple" , it tells you what i think about her. She backstabs. she is a
两头蛇 [ liang tou she].

What is this man?! I really dont know what is purple thinking! If she wants to apologise, please come to me personally and do it. If not ,she is so not sincere about it.

And Jw told me that one of my friend told her that because 我比较坚强 so XY and YJ would go with purple than with me but the fact is they are like abandoning me for her. HELLO, i am the victim here!whatever.

The most important thing is trust between friends in order to have a long friendship. Trust your friend, give them another chance and you will not regret if anything happen.

Writing all this things in he blog really make me feel better. Not much people know about this blog so i can write freely. My mum knows that i have a blog and i think that she might read what i will be posting [ but i hope she will not read] and i will try my best to try to update my blog daily!


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18 March 2008
Financial Literacy Workshop

I have already attended this workshop before in Malaysia,Sarawak, miri.
Even though its a bit different but what they are trying to convey to us is the same eg. Wants and needs and many more. Its not really boring as it is conducted in a different language than the one i attended.

They want us to know how to spent money wisely and know how to invest, taking risk. All this i have learnt already so this is a sort of recap and i think that this is very useful to us as it will help us in the future but now studies came first [ get good results for O'level! ]

----------------------------------------------------------------------------- I don't really know but i have a so call best friend call mic but now she because of one small little thing, and make a big fuss. Even though i in the end apologize she didn't so call accept i cried. I told her that i believed her all the time but she suspect my gossiping about her and telling her secrets away. But i didn't what's the problem with her i just don't understand. I was really very sad . But of course i told some of my friend and she told me that ''no man or woman worth your tears, those who worth your tears will not make you cry''. I really don't know what to say, I don't think she know I am troubled about this, she won't know but I will have more friends and make sure I will be with them forever.